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REOCCURRENCE
eavedrop
My head’s floating,
holding things I dread
my home is spinning
freezing, is this the end?
Cuz I’m
Surrounded by things I hate
But they’re the things that I need to feel safe
is this a way to escape?
my reflection always seems to shift its shape
Sitting on the tiled ground
like a baby I got fingers in my mouth
The hanger for these clothes
feels so euphoric cuz I’m in control
Can’t see clearly, I need some eyedrops
I hate the way my mirror eavesdrops
(On my body again)
indulging in the chorus of my insides
Applauding me in ways that make me wonder how i’m staying alive
So deluded, putrid
What a mess
I’ve been drowned in,
smothered in shapelessness
Cuz I’m
craving the taste of bliss
just like the flavour of self discipline
and so I self-isolate
from everything that could disrupt the pace
Even if I lay down
The dizziness— dizziness tangles up my tongue
the other day my heart was
on the verge of simply giving up
can’t see clearly, I need some eyedrops
I hate the way my mirror eavesdrops
(On my body again)
indulging in the chorus of my insides
Applauding me in ways that make me wonder how I’m staying alive
I’ve been giving you my entire being
Can they hear it too? What ur doing to my heart beating
I’ve dedicated my time and motivation
Just to lose myself to this toxic relationship
Yet I can’t stop handing you exactly what you’re wanting
So tell me why I
can’t see clearly, I need some eyedrops
I hate the way my mirror eavesdrops
(On my body again)
indulging in the chorus of my insides
Applauding me in ways that make me wonder how I’m staying alive